Saturday, September 1, 2007
A Little Confidence Is All I Need
Ta dah! Suddenly, I find myself all the way across the country in California. Not only across the country, but with an abrupt status change as well. In other words, I am now a college student. Enrolled at TAC, where I am in full pursuit of the good, the true, and the beautiful. So they tell me.In reality, I'm just trying to find an excuse to get off campus and go drinking. 'Cause that's what you do around here for fun. Some people would tell you that you should do Irish Dance and sit around campfires singing Oh, Susannah (while perfectly sober. I'm not kidding), but we avoid those people. Anyway, it is now the weekend and the weather is mercilessly hot. It's over 100 degrees here, in dry heat, which is very different from the Georgia humidity that I'm used to.
By the way, if you tell me that I should not be ending this sentence with a preposition, I will merely reply in the words of the famous Dr. Johnson: "That is a pedantry up with which I will not put." Be that as it may, I find myself moving from water fountain to water fountain, rather like a sponge which unexpectedly finds itself in an area devoid of moisture.
Sometimes I sit in my room and feel that it is all too much for me. Because there are people here. A lot of people. That I don't know very well. This perturbs me. It perturbs me quite a bit, and I don't know what to do anymore. I know that I just need to brace up and get over the stomach-clenching anxiety that makes me want to turn and run whenever I see someone coming. If I can do that, maybe I can have an okay time.
Some people are trying to get me to go sky-diving in Santa Barbara with them. Maybe that'll help. Then again, maybe my parachute will fail and I'll go plummeting to the ground. Sigh.
I really need to climb a long ladder and get over myself, don't I.
Spudge at 3:39 PM