Thursday, January 17, 2008
"I wanna see movies of my dreams."
I suppose I should put an actual post up, since that last one was pretty much just a rant that I spewed out on good ol’ Microsoft Word. A conversation with my sister convinced me that I should be writing more, so I put it up on my blog. And now I'm spewing this one out, likewise on Microsoft Word. The end!Anyway, I’m back at college now, after a pretty good break. I spent as much time as possible with Fishy and Patrick, but it feels like it wasn’t enough. And I only got to see Saralyn once. Still, at least I got to see her. We spent most of our time wasting it, which is always a good way to spend time, if you’re with the right people. Which I was. They made me watch Silent Hill, which is quite a good horror movie. I know, because it scared the absolute shit out of me. But I wanted to see it, because here’s the cool thing: There’s a boy in my class who lives in the town that they used for the movie. According to him, they had to clean it up for the film. I cannot imagine. All I know is that if I lived there, I’d have to move far, far away after watching that movie.
We also watched Batman Begins, which I mention only because it sparked off a deep obsession (at least on the part of Lauren and myself) with Cillian Murphy. Yes, I admit it. I’m an utter Murphy-fanatic (by the way, we discovered that Patrick looks just like him. He denies this strenuously, but it’s true. Fishy got lucky in the boyfriend department). It’s not even about the looks, really, for me. He’s a fantastic actor. Blends into each role, etc. I think he’s miles beyond Johnny Depp, partly because I’m sick and tired of Depp, but also because Cillian’s amazing. Of course, from there we waged a campaign to watch every movie Murphy’s ever been in, such as Red Eye, which is a surprisingly decent thriller. Cillian makes a very good villain. I was also introduced to 28 Days Later, which is now one of my favorite films. It’s funny, because it’s the type of film I would snob off if I hadn’t been made to see it, but now that I have watched it, I adore it. Quite a good semi-indie suspense movie. And it’s not that scary at all.
I’m rambling on in this manner, because I don’t want to talk about college, really. I’ve discovered more and more this year that I just don’t like it here. The academics don’t interest me, and the social life leaves something to be desired. I’m just not happy, is what it all boils down to. Plus, I went drinking last Friday (I would say night, but it started in the afternoon and then went on into the evening), during which time Leon, one of my best friends here, decided to break the news to us that he was leaving on Sunday. For good. Needless to say, total buzz-kill. I nearly started crying on him, and remained depressed for the rest of the evening. Fuck, I'm still depressed. I don’t know what we’re going to do without him. He’s the king of our group. His car, his tunes, his total willingness to go out and get hammered any and every night of the week.... Also, he’s very good-looking. Polish, and all. What is it with Eastern Europeans? They’re fucking gorgeous.
So yeah, Leon’s bringing down the class average attractiveness by a lot with his departure, and the rest of us are in mourning. I understand why he’s leaving; I don’t want to stay here myself. I’m not sure what I want to do, exactly. Transfer somewhere, probably. Somewhere I can fulfill my dream of becoming a film director, and making beautiful, beautiful movies. Which would cause my parents to have one massive heart attack (studying film, not making beautiful movies). Well, you know what? Someday I'll win an Oscar. That'll show 'em.
Or, you know, become a bum on the streets. That would show them too.
Spudge at 8:13 PM